questions..

Hasn't it feel any better? Or is it continue to drag me to troubles. It is me who stops my ways or is it the sense of guilt that haunts me since the beginning of my first friendship. Feeling guilty? i always do. Even on the simplest things. Some times i hate myself so much for it. To watch people reaction and react according to what pleases them. In some situation, observing and reacting towards the situation is needed.

How does one tolerate the feeling of always following in others shoes?Always told what to do?As much as you dislike it,you eventually find yourself attending to a certain command.

You find yourself sometimes comforting your heart,but you know it was always not enough.there's no satisfaction.Or maybe were just asking too much?

the world is a lot meaner out there.Seeing adults arguing on silly things and the ways of being so calculative really makes me wonder?God will i be like that one day. I certainly hope not.I'm just only maybe less then a year of being a young adult.Or is just my childish thinking?

Just really frustrated with the surroundings...anyways studies FIRST!!

Home once more..

17th sept..
the clock was ticking.It was the last minute of that long exam.
30 seconds..everyone seem so excited.
10...9...8...7..6.. the class started to get noisy as the teacher collects the paper early.
5...4...3...2..1.. YAHOOO!!!everybody lit themselves up the seat and rushed outside.Some shouted and screamed..all you can hear then say was...man it was all over!!

I met up with my friends and we all were saying..LET'S PARTY!!!

18th sept..just us girls..
YO!! we both(wen and i) said as we entered mp's room.She was getting ready and yam was there already.
Constantly trashing her wardrobe, mp was looking for the right outfit.
Not long after yin yun joined us, then yq...last miss joo yi.hahaha!
All 8 of us girls sat in mp's car and off we went..SUNWAY LAGOON HERE WE COME!
It was fun the whole time..laughter filled our ears, cracking lame jokes, screams, shopping and camwhoring!! I feel home once more with my friends. It certainly was a long time since we hang out.Being around with the friends who care and love you really fills my heart. We all missed the feeling too, i could feel it.Desperately having the time of our lives!ahahahha!! Love you guys!! woohooo!!!

just playing crazy..

reach for the stars

Stress...kononnya

OK...i've totally turned this bog dead..have i?
God the major examinations are just...less then three months..now i really need god and concentration.
Piano practical exam just passed...i'm not ever going to play piano for more then 4 hours again.Every thing was horrible before that.It was all piano,PIano,PIANO!! I could sleep that night..thinking about how i screwed it up and the way the invidulator looked at me with his big fade blue eyes creeps me out.
IT was sejarah after that. NOpes trails is not done yet. Didnt manage to finish much...lazy pig here. Nothing seems to be going in....i'm so dead.
IS midnight already...MERDEKA PEOPLE!...off with my sejarah again...like what wen said studying sejarah on merdeka day..how patriotic can we be huh?

IN all the stress i still manage to find some good songs..wahahahahah!!

the wind blows..

Have you ever feel like your tied being a nice person?
They take every piece of advantage of you..but you still embrace them with a smile.
You hear peoples harsh words to you,but you cant fight back.
Giving them part of your precious property,but they misuse them.
HELLO!! a simple thank you will do.please.
Sounds like this person is a jerk right?
Be silent for once and you'll see things from a different point of view.Some decides to be a victim,but most decides to get back what they rightfully earn...their pride.
It's up to you..
can i truly with stand it? or will i manage to make a difference?

LOlz..i'm officially 17th..6 days ago. Was really happy with the love, joy and presents my DEAR friends gave me.thank guys!LOVE YA!! thank you guys for all the memories and sincere blessing..it has truly been great to know you all.

Sien...time to study though.Music and wen is keeping me company along with my daily responsibilities.Kinda stress out though.As days pass i feel we all in class are bonding and that's a good feeling.more laughter going out and about.5 siantan truly is one hell of a class.


when is time..the wind calls...
he creates miracles...

NS

OH..is been a while since i really blogged.NOthing much going on lately, just extremly tied...study ..study..dance practice...god..SPM is so near now...X/
Anyways...two days ago, i trying so hard to get the CLASS LAYOUT DONE.Oh mama!!i took me ages to finish it.OK,get back to what i want to say here..arr..ya i was using the computer.Suddenly dear gwen texted me.
her message:
GOO AND CHECK IF YOU KENA NS!!!!!!!

In my head,i was thinking...ohh why now?My heart was pounding hard at the same time.The more i try to ignore the feeling i should pick up my phone to check, the more i wanted to do it.Curious..i took the phone and type.

RING...(my sms tone)
Cold sweat was coming down my forehead.My heartbeat was pounding and increasing it's rate till i could hear and feel my heart in my throat.I was telling myself to calm down.Finally, i took it up and said let it not be me.

TANIAH ANDA TELAH TERPILIH UNTUK MENGHADIRI KHIDMAT NEGARA SIRI 7/2010

I ran to the kitchen,bust open the door and SCREAMED in front of my mum.
MUM: What's going on?what happen? (in a concern voice)
i hesitate..looked at her for a second..
then..i said MA I KENA NS!!
MUM: haiyo..

I was not happy with it at first..but accepted the fact later...

class layout take 2..